Compassion

Have you ever just wanted compassion? Someone to listen to your day and to just well just listen? Yesterday I called the father of my child and just was looking for some compassion. I have just started working again and was stressed out over leaving Emmanuel home all day with my mother and dealing with the kids at work and just finances and well everything that of course was maximized by my hormones. I started to pour out my feelings of stress and anxiety and explained that I did not think I could do this. It is really hard being a single parent. And the compassion that I received was simply this " well just take it a day at a time and do not worry, you will get use to the stress" WHAT!!!!! Has he ever known what it was like to be a single parent that is in charge of everything that befalls your child, NO. Has he ever been the only parent there to wake up night after night to change diapers and make bottles, NO. Yeah he takes care of his kids but he will never know what it feels like to be a single parent. It is hard and I think I deserve a little more compassion from the man who is not doing a thing besides letting me so graciously take a chunk out of his paycheck every month. This man should give me a little more compassion because I deserve better. If he was not such a coward and did not back out on every promise he ever made me then we would not be in this situation. He thinks that by being a, well plain and simple, an ass that I will be happier and more nice with him he is highly mistaken. Here he is still lying to his wife saying that we were not together and blah blah blah. Seriously I would think he would be showering me with gifts not to tell this woman the truth. I believe she needs to know, what woman would not want to know, But the greedy man he is does not want to pay 5 children child support so he would rather just pay the one and make my child the center of shame. He should be shamed, he should have his face plastered up on every billboard letting people know that he is a liar. He continues to lie to his wife, his kids, his family, and me. He needs to stop being a stupid coward and tell the truth and take what consequences God affords him, because I am tired of being his accomplice.